tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28117562494524622222024-03-18T22:03:27.097-07:00Mismash of MessElizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.comBlogger54125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-1052001251160771692016-11-30T19:46:00.006-08:002016-12-01T04:59:54.837-08:00When Nice Doesn't Cut It<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">I've tried... Tried to sit back, hope for the best. Be nice
and keep my mouth shut <i> <b>(</b>that's what I've
always done after all<b>)</b></i> but I've found that it's simply not going to work. Being
the bigger person no longer means turning the other cheek. I remember a time
when you went out of your way not to offend people, not to make others
uncomfortable or say something that could hurt their feelings but that time
passed. Keeping the peace has passed. <u><b>It died on November 9th</b></u>. I woke up that
morning and realized that holding my tongue, keeping the peace and being<i> 'nice'
</i>wasn't going to cut it anymore. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Instead I needed to point out the fact that:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<li><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">I have an opinion</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">It matters</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Yes, I'm a woman but, I'm educated and I'm not less than the
white male population</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">My voice is the only one that is going to stick up for my
children, for me and in some cases other people.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm not going to be afraid anymore to be me. Even if now,
it's one of the most terrifying times in this country.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">I say nice died on November 9th but, the reality is it was a
slower death than that. My son <i><b>(</b>who has Asperger’s<b>)</b></i> woke up that morning asking
about the election results. He's 14 years old, old enough to pay attention, old
enough to understand the gravity the title of President holds. I told him who
won and while it was with a heavy heart I didn't let him know that. These
things I've always believed are opinions that you should not force on your
children. I don't want my kids growing up with the same opinions as me. I want
them to think for themselves not spew forth my opinions just because that's
what they grew up hearing. He was upset. Very upset and at the time I tried to
remain optimistic.<i> 'Checks and Balances'</i> I distinctly remember explaining in
detail.<i><b> (</b>He hasn't had government class yet<b>)</b></i> I thought or hoped rather that
this would ease his mind. For a couple days, it did. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Then Friday rolled around. He was home from school and we
went to lunch. While at lunch <i><b>(</b>a friend of mine and Trump supporter was there<b>)</b></i>
during this outing, my son looked at me and said "Mom I just don't
understand how come people would vote for a man that makes fun of people like
me." And I didn't have an answer because that was only one thing on a
laundry list of items that made me question how people could vote for a man
like that. Of course, at the time I wanted to cry because when your child hurts
you hurt and damn it him gathering that <u><b>HURT</b> <b>like hell</b></u>. But, I didn't I just
said 'Me neither buddy me neither.' <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Later that night <i><b>(</b>and the exact conversation I was not
present for<b>)</b></i> he brought up the same question to his grandparents. One of the
responses he got was "Well you don't know what the context was" Obviously,
that upset him tremendously. When we talked about it I was pissed, no furious.
His own grandparents saying that to him... Because as I explained to them.
<i>‘Think about it... Someone mocking your grandson. Do you really give a shit
what the context is? I certainly hope not. They're mocking him for something he
cannot help. I'd be fucking furious.'</i> It takes a small human being to mock a
person with disabilities. It takes an even smaller person to tell ME a mother
of someone with disabilities that I don't understand the context that said
mocking was done in because there is <b>NO CONTEXT</b> in which mocking is ever okay. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"><b><u>MOCKING is BULLYING and I HAVE A ZERO TOLERANCE POLICY.</u></b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">That is... It's a despicable human being and the fact that
these seemingly small indiscretions have been looked over time and time again
is a crime. Each person that excuses this behavior is just as guilty as if
you've committed these acts yourself. <i>'One of the greatest crimes is inaction'</i>
Yet <b>YOU VOTED FOR HIM</b>. Like Donald Trump is some answer that we don't
even have the question to.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">In the less than month since he's been elected people <i><b>(</b>and
by people, I mean minorities<b>)</b></i> have been attacked in his name time and time
again. I don't care if people use the <i>'oh I was drunk' </i>excuse the fact remains
you felt that somewhere deep down and that makes you an asshole. That makes you
just as bad as the terrorists that you supposedly hate. <b>BUT--</b> there is one
difference you're doing it because you supposedly love this country? Yeah if
you did you would be working to better it not tear it down at the seams.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">This country is more divided now than it was three weeks
ago. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">We have a vice president elect calling for democracy in Cuba
yet he walks out on actors exercising their right to free speech, wants to take
away a woman's right to choose and actual democracy doesn't mean a whole hell
of a lot to him. Sadly, he considers being spoken to with respect bullying.
<i><b>(</b>buddy look in the mirror and then talk to me about bullies<b>)</b></i> When you <b>STOP</b>
trying to tell me what I can do with <b>MY BODY</b> then we can talk about bullies.
Until then I have no place for you. <i><b>(</b>and for the record my birth control runs
out in a couple of days which means that I should be starting my period in a
week and then I start the cycle all over again. of course, you'd probably
rather I not have access to the birth control that I use to control the
hyperplasia that I suffer from without it therefore ending up with endometrial
cancer. I'm just a woman after all what's it matter to you?<b>)</b></i> <b>AND</b> can I <b>NOT</b> even
begin to discuss the fact that your stance on working mothers is a damn joke.
Especially when there's so many lovely <b><u>WHITE MEN</u></b> like the two of you <i><b>(</b>yourself
and your lovely boss</i>) that don't take care of their business. You're a whole
different breed that needs to be sent to the middle ages because you don't know
your head from a hole in the ground. I feel sorry for your wife and family. I
feel bad for anyone that shares your twisted ideals.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">The president elect would rather try to strip a flag burner
of their citizenship and put a cross burner in their cabinet. Put a woman who
has <b>NEVER</b> dealt with the public-school system a day in her life in charge of
education and a white supremacist... <i><b>(</b>why is that even allowed in the same
thought as president elect?<b>)</b></i> Nominating <i><b>(</b>if that's what you want to call it<b>) </b></i>a
man that made millions from the collapse of this economy to head the treasury
department. The exact type of people you promised to protect the citizens
from-- <u><b>WALLSTREET TYPES</b></u><i><b> (</b>Of course he's a blatant liar and has been for years.
Yet people were naive enough to vote for him<b>)</b></i><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Should I begin to discuss his disrespect for veterans and
blatant disregard for their future by even considering Sarah<i> 'Bridge to
Nowhere'</i> Palin to head up the VA? It's disgraceful. However, every step he's
made has been a disgrace not to mention about twenty steps backwards from where
we are now.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">He's got women working for him that are as good at double
talk as he is. Which is no small feat but eventually it'll bite you in the ass.
They're giving interviews and speaking on his behalf and pointing out the fact
that interviews don't have to be under oath. <b>RIGHT-- </b>and yet you should
probably be honest with the American people. You know since we're the people
that he's swearing to <b>PROTECT</b> and this is the man that's going to be
representing us to other nations. Think about that long and hard for a minute...
Did you cringe? I know I did. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"><u><b>Then there's healthcare. </b></u>Donald has been talking about
getting rid of what we have now. Look- there are changes that need to be made yes,
I agree. Getting rid of this healthcare system completely? No that's not the
answer. That's the worst thing that could happen for this country. <i><b>(</b>coming from
a healthcare worker<b>)</b></i> We need this system. We need this system to be more
affordable <b>BUT</b> it's only been two years. These things don't happen overnight. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Trust me-- our hospital affiliation changed 5 years ago, and
we still get the<i> 'be patient'</i> speech and that's just a group of hospitals <b>NOT </b>a
nation of people. <i><b>(</b>before this we were the<b> ONLY </b>industrialized nation without a
form of socialized medicine. Just some food for thought<b>) </b></i><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">To the people that voted for this man... Do you look back at
Hitler and think <i>'Wow he was a standup guy?'</i> Do you feel good about the fact
that there are groups of people that are no longer safe where just 45 days ago...
Hell 30 days ago, they were? Does it make you sleep better at night to know
that when your kids are 4 years older this place is going to be worse off?
<i><b>(</b>remember your kids will pick your nursing home<b>)</b></i> Because even if you don't
already see it... It's there. The writing, the fact that this country back
peddled about 30 years it's all writing on a wall in giant graffiti. Spelled
out in bright letters...<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"><b>And then---</b></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"><b> </b></span></o:p></h2>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">Don't anyone tell me I'm a bad parent because my kids care
about politics when they're not the ones going to school saying things like<i> 'I
just don't think gay people should get married'</i> or <i>'I don't want a baby killer
as president'</i> Hate to burst all your bubbles <b>BUT-- THAT</b> wasn't my kid. My kid
<i><b>(</b>my 12-year-old daughter<b>)</b></i> was the one that said <i>'Really how does someone else's
marriage effect you?'</i> Because <b>TRUTH</b> it doesn't and you're bringing your god
somewhere it doesn't belong again. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">As for the baby killer comments, it's like I've always
<b>ALWAYS</b> explained to my children. <i>'Abortion is an ugly topic with even uglier
opinions. People talk about god and this and that. If that's your reason for
not getting one. Fanfriggintastic <b>BUT </b>that's<b> NOT</b> a reason to make them illegal.
Abortion may not be something you would choose or want your child to choose
but, that never gives you the right to take that choice away from someone else.
At the end of the day what someone else does has zero effect on you.' </i><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm not a god-fearing person. I don't believe that church,
god or religion have any place in Washington D.C. I honestly feel that the
separation of church and state should be exactly that-- a separation. Clear,
concise and distinct. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">However, if there is a hell there's a special place... Warm
for people like Donald Trump and Mike Pence. Demoralizing, Misogynistic,
Xenophobic, piece of trash that they both are. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">When all of this comes crashing down on you. When you wake
up from the cloud of smoke that you're living in remember this time. Remember
we had the chance to do something besides let a fascist take over this country. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"><b>YET PEOPLE STILL VOTED FOR HIM. </b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">It was bigger than not liking Hillary. Not wanting to listen
to her speak...<i><b> (</b>Which may be one of the absolute worst excuses I've ever heard
for not voting for her<b>)</b></i> Because of that you've given a liar, narcissist and
someone with the most conflict of interest I've <b>EVER </b>seen the highest office of
power in this country. That's rich or a special kind of stupid that I cannot
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Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-45243241644924398592016-11-17T05:30:00.001-08:002016-11-17T05:30:44.119-08:00Humanity-- That is the Question.<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #454545; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">There are times in my life when I question humanity. I wonder how people-- people I've known for years (at least I thought I've known for years) can have such drastically different beliefs than me. (of course I get it people don't always think and believe the same things) But, for the most part I always figured that I surrounded myself with people that thought somewhat the same things as me. Of course variety is the salt of life but, hypocrisy is NOT. When you don't worry about something because it doesn't have a direct impact on you there's a problem. One day it may have an impact on someone you know, someone you care about and when that day comes-- you're going to want someone in your corner. In the past week people that I have known for years have come to be the people that I've lost so much for. Respect, friendship-- How in the matter of a few words can my opinion of them be altered completely? How is it that I can lose respect for the people that raised me so quickly?</span></span></div>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: helvetica neue, arial, helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">I get it. I do. People's opinions are different and they always will be. That's the beauty of living here, we are allowed to have these opinions, thoughts and feelings. But, when your thoughts or feelings degrade, segregate or repress another group
of people can you not see the problem with this? How can you not see the dangers and fine lines we are starting to walk yet again? </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">The writing's on the wall and that writing is terrifying. The discontent and hate that's being bred reminds me of the fear and loathing that happened when AIDS first was diagnosed. <i><b>(</b>not to the same degree<b>)</b></i> However, people being chased from grocery
stores all because of who they love and who <u>THEY ARE</u>, letters being left for kids telling them to go back to where they came from because of the color of their skin and little girls afraid to wear a hijab because of what may happen. These are all things that <u>SHOULD</u>
never happen here in America. Really it should <u>NEVER</u> happen period but, in a country that preaches equality it should be one of the things that <i>NEVER</i> happens. Yet it does, with increasing frequency lately. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">I'm not pointing fingers necessarily. I'm not going to say this is one person's fault because it's not. <i><b>(</b>although to lie and say that they have not perpetuated this would be a disservice<b>) </b></i>This is the culmination of many things. Closed minded individuals who chose not to educate themselves or instead live by the bible which is fine
you do that but, there's this thing called <b><u>separation of church and state</u></b>. To me this seems fairly clear-- the church doesn't get involved in laws and the state doesn't get involved in church. Now I know what you're going to say-- the church believes
in preservation of life, it believes that marriage is between a man and a woman. Abortion is not performed by the church which means it does not directly affect the church and at the same time even if same sex marriage is legal there is no law stating
a church has to perform it. Keeping the laws out of the church. <i><b>(</b>you want to remain a tax exempt entity yet want your hands all over how the country is run<b>)</b></i> Doesn't seem like it's fair to have it both ways does it?</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">Back to my point, why if it doesn't directly affect you does it matter so much? What gives you the right to take someone else's rights away? To force your thoughts on another person/group of people? What makes you better? Entitled? </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">It's just some food for thought before you start talking in front of your kids and they start regurgitating your words. Just because someone supports the right to choose doesn't make them a <i><u>'baby killer'</u></i> and quite frankly I find that offensive. There's
no one that can ever convince me that while abortion may not be something I choose or would want my daughter to choose that I have the right to take that choice away from someone else. No thousand year old book by an unknown author, law maker
sitting in an office in Washington DC, no one will convince me otherwise. Just like those same people will never convince me that they can pick who has a right to love who and how they choose to express it. If they want to get married let them.
How does it actually impact you? Really in the grand scheme of things when you wake up in the morning does it have an impact on your day to day life? <i>I highly highly doubt it.</i> Kids... Your kids are spewing your hate and it's sad. I remember hoping
when I was younger this world would be a lot more tolerant when I was an adult and all I've found is that it's simply not. Of course there are some people... A lot that are but, then there are those that are not. That are just as hateful as they were when I was growing up. When my childhood consisted of hating the fact that Ryan White's family had to live in fear because their poor son was dying and it wasn't his fault. Now, I am an adult and I have to hate the fact that people are back to hiding who they love, not celebrating their religion, worrying about their right to choose. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">If anything November 8th simply proved that. It proved that this country is so many steps behind where it should be. I'm sad. Sad for us as a people more than anything. Mostly though I'm sad for teenagers. The 14-17 year olds that weren't old enough
to vote that were counting on us not to let them down. The ones that hoped, maybe even prayed that we'd keep moving in the right direction because we didn't. We didn't and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that while you're waiting for your chance... Your
chance to be heard you have to tolerate whatever happens. If the last week and a half is any indicator it's going to be rough but hang in there. You're not alone. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: uictfonttextstylebody; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">If you're suffering or scared because of all of this... You're not alone. There are people who know America was great before. Just hang in there. Educate yourselves, hold onto your beliefs and find your people because this too shall pass. </span></span><br />
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Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-59435764638740943322016-11-09T04:32:00.002-08:002016-11-09T04:32:29.093-08:00We've Been Trump(ed) <div style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; color: #444444; font-size: 14px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant-numeric: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin-bottom: 15px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">
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<sub style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What I do know is this-- and believe me it’s hard to see it now because we are all standing on the brink of something. The unknown-- it’s scary but, hold on to your beliefs. <span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">DO NOT</span> become the bully, hate spewing, loathsome creature that this man that a bunch of country bumpkin, elitist, supremacist people elected because in getting angry <i style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">(</span>which you do have every right to be. we all do<span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">)</span></i> but, acting on it-- in becoming a bully you’re stooping to his level and that feels good at the time but, we are better than that. In the end you’ll regret it. </span></sub></div>
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<sub style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We will get through this. As a country-- as human beings. Hopefully with some humanity in tact.<i style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"> (</span>I have to hold onto that belief because if I don’t then what’s the point really?<span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">)</span></i> I’ve digressed though. We will get through this. Probably with some scratches, maybe a few scars but, as a nation and people we’re better than this--- Better than him. <i style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">(</span>I’ve never filed bankruptcy he’s filed for it four times so there I’m a couple legs up<span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">) </span></i></span></sub></div>
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<sub style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yeah things are going to get hairy and to all you teenagers that are worried about your futures. Members of the LBGTQ community that are fearful remember you have a community. People to turn too. When I was growing up all that was brand new <i style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">(</span>the community was just starting to come together<span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">) </span></i>and hell I just finally told my family this year that I haven’t been in a relationship in over ten years because I am asexual. </span></sub></div>
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<sub style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">African Americans <i style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">(</span>blacks if that’s what you want to be referred to as<span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">)</span></i>, Muslims and Latino/a(s) there are lots of us that have your back. Of course there are some that don’t and I’m sorry I apologize for those individuals because it gives those of us who do care and really do want better for each and every person here a bad name.</span></sub></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><sub style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px;">There was a time when part of being a President meant you had to have a certain capacity for diplomacy. Something that has clearly gone right out the window. Do I think that we had a better choice in the this election? Let’s just say that there was probably a lesser of two evils. This was the first time that I can say that and <i style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11.6667px; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-variant: inherit; font-weight: 700; line-height: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: none 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">REALLY</span></i> mean it. </sub><span style="font-style: inherit; font-variant-caps: inherit; font-variant-ligatures: inherit; font-weight: inherit; vertical-align: sub;">.</span><span style="font-style: inherit; font-variant-caps: inherit; font-variant-ligatures: inherit; font-weight: inherit; vertical-align: sub;"> </span></span></div>
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Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-76077243755491726102016-10-26T16:45:00.000-07:002016-10-26T18:52:01.138-07:00This Ain't Love or Other Drugs<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> For the majority of my life I've been dealing with depression on some level. It's been this ever evolving roadmap that if I were being completely honest with not only myself but the bevvy of medical professionals that seemed to <b>DEEM</b> it necessary to label me with some sort of diagnosis that never quite stuck. Medicate me with pills that never really did anything but make me feel worse. About five or six years ago I made the decision to stop taking medication altogether after it was made clear that nothing helped. Being made a shell of myself wasn't something that I liked or needed. I didn't want it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> Of course that also left me with the anxiety. Something that is so hard for someone who doesn't suffer from it to understand. It's hard for them to understand that there are times when I feel as though I'm being caged like some kind of animal. I can't breathe and god it's an awful feeling. Sometimes I can talk myself down and other times there's nothing I can do to stop it. I just have to sit back and let it happen because trying and failing to stop my anxiety attack is even worse than dealing with the anxiety alone.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> I remember being a teenager and having a breakdown. Crying, screaming and just all in all breaking everything. It was shortly after my uncles died and to be honest I don't remember much about that time except for the turmoil. It was bad-- dark and honestly I really am not proud of the things that I did and the way that I handled myself through a lot of it. The two of them died nine hours apart in unrelated incidents. It threw our family into an uproar and while we were doing our best to cope and hold it together some failed miserably. Things were said and done that people maybe regretted and <b>OTHERS</b> maybe not. For the most part I have forgiven that part of life but, <b>WHAT</b> I will never understand is how someone can say such nasty things to a child. <i><b>(</b>because at the time that's what I was<b>) </b></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> Life was never something that had been <b>EASY</b> for me. Don't get me wrong-- I've never been one that thinks that I've had it worse than anyone else.<i><b> (</b>because I haven't and I'm well aware of that<b>)</b></i> There are people who haven't been able to cope with the things that they've gone through <b>HOWEVER</b>, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't come out bruised, broken and a little damaged on the other side. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> Losing my grandma-- <i><b>(</b>both of them<b>)</b></i> was probably one of the most difficult things I've ever had to go through. After my uncles which was the first taste of death that I had. <b>BUT-- </b>to say that it was the worst would be a lie. I was close to both of my grandmothers. Unbelievably close to one and seeing her fade away was the most difficult thing I've ever had to do. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> Another thing that makes life difficult is my inability to talk to people. <i><b>(</b>it's a defense mechanism more than anything<b>)</b></i> Although the truth is that I've always been a private person. I don't like talking about myself or opening up. Nothing that could in any way make me appear weak. It's just something that I've always had a hard time with. I hide behind a lot of things-- walls, humor and sarcasm. I've gotten good and getting people to think I'm one person when really I'm someone else. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> I think that when I <b>REALLY</b> started to question things about myself-- my sexuality was the big one I realized that each time I slowly started to become more and more comfortable with myself things started to actually go downhill. <b>WHY? </b>Simple because the more comfortable I was the more the realization hit me-- acceptance wasn't something that was going to be there from my family. <i><b>(</b>they would never understand how I could NOT want a relationship<b>)</b></i> <b>OR</b> how a relationship to me is something that's not physical in nature. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">It's not that I avoid the issues. I form opinions, educate myself and can speak rather fluently on quite a few topics of the mood strikes. <b><i>HOWEVER,</i></b> it's rare the mood strikes these days. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Now, before I get into anything I need to make something very clear... My support does NOT lie with either of these candidates. If anything their campaigns have done nothing but prove how inept both of them would be. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">A President is someone we should be able to count on. They should be able to say the correct thing when a global tragedy happens. Mr. Trump you have proven on more than one occasion your mouth opens and what comes out is mostly cringe worthy. Ms. Clinton you have proven that when you speak the words that come out of your mouth are questionable at best. <i><b>(</b>Both horrible qualities for someone speaking for a nation<b>)</b></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I hear the usual debates come up. Some things never change. Abortion, the economy, jobs-- all issues. Touchy issues that I wonder why they're truly big ticket issues. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Abortion-- everyone has an opinion that they feel is right. For them that opinion is right <b>BUT</b> just because you would never or have never had an abortion or been in a situation where you had to choose <b>DOES NOT</b> mean that you should take that right away from someone else. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Let's not get into the whole who's going to speak for the baby, when is a zygote a baby debate because it's going to go around in circles forever and never end. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">What I'm saying is that a woman shouldn't lose that right to make a choice. <i><b>(</b>Is it a choice I would make? Probably not so please don't get self righteous on me<b>)</b></i> I'm simply saying that while I see both sides of said debate the answer seems pretty simple. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The economy-- is always going to be an issue as long as jobs are an issue. If people don't work they don't spend money. Sure there are schemes to boost the economy but the best boost would be to stop sending jobs out of the country. <i><b>(</b>Easier said than done<b>)</b></i> </span></div>
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Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-63662429540923111132012-08-30T04:04:00.001-07:002016-10-25T23:40:44.410-07:00I Don't Want To Grow Up..... Yes You Do<div>At a certain point in everyone's life we decide we have to ”grow” up. For whatever reason we have responsibilities that become so important to us. Of course we have to all be responsible but losing that child like glow to the cynical stupor of adulthood is devastating to see. Holding into youth and laughing (I mean really laughing) are the best ways to stay young. I'm not saying don't grow up and be immature your whole life. You have to be responsible but, find the humor in life. It isn't always roses but it isn't always coal either.<br />
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Remember being a kid and saying you never wanted to grow up? Of course that was toward the end of childhood when the weight of adulthood started weighing on us like a two ton brick. Before that it was always ”I can't wait to grow up so no one can tell me what to do”. As children we are always pushing against our parents and anyone that wants to tell us what to do. We believe that being an adult means that no one will be the boss of us anymore. All of these phrases come to an abrupt halt when we realized we are going to grow up no matter how much we fight it and someone somewhere is always going to tell us what to do. Those are just the plain facts of life. Those facts are always told to us. We as children choose to remain blissfully ignorant to the fact that we won't be the boss, someone else will always call the shots. One day we are going to be that person telling our kids don't grow up too fast. Savor your childhood and youth. You're always going to have someone telling you what to do. I've become that person. Even though personally I feel so immature. It is odd feeling like a child in an adults body. But, that is the most accurate description of myself and many other people that I have met.<br />
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Being able to hold fast to the things that brought you happiness and joy is so important. No matter how much life throws at you and how busy you are there is always something. To not take the time to see those things and lose yourself is when being an adult seems so daunting. I remember when I was younger and thinking that my mom had no friends. She did but, life was life and priorities were not what they once were. Being a mom took over her life. In a big way now I am sorry that that happened. I have days where I feel like if I do not get a chance to go and be me without the interaction of children I am going to snap. I never want to lose myself or the things that make me tick. Whether it is the music, movies, books whatever. I hold those near and dear and make sure I keep them for me.<br />
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No matter how you slice it growing up and being a grown up are never easy. I just wish that there was some sort of owners manual for the mind.Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-20811892529681526942012-08-19T20:33:00.001-07:002012-08-19T20:33:05.450-07:00Quotations a beginning<span style="color: #b45f06;"><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I decided that I wanted to do a compilation of quotes from different people, different places, and on different things. Just a little something so that when you don't quite know the words you want to use to describe your happiness you can find them. Something to help convey your sorrow, happiness, and love. My only hope is that you find something here that will mean something to you. </span></i></span><br />
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Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-4505221020997144822012-08-18T21:17:00.002-07:002012-08-18T21:17:31.499-07:00Our Country The TeenagerI've realized something recently that has left me slightly disturbed. Even though I really am not a political fan I am driven more by politics than most anything else. Nothing gets my engine going more than some of the things that people say or do in regards to politics. I don't want to be a politician. There wasn't even a hint of a lie when note was made that I'd last not even five minutes. I can't do it. Never have I been noted as the one that can keep her mouth shut and just smile and act like it's all okay. Politicians are the scape goat of many and the hero to few. When I was a kid I used to want to be the first female president. I lost interest in that when Clinton ran and told everyone he didn't inhale. Be that as it may I knew right then and there I was disqualified. Do I consider that a disqualifying attribute? No not in a million years. Many, if not all of or presidents have been perpetual over achievers. This leaves them unable to handle criticism and failure well. I'm not saying let just anyone be president. What I'm saying is pick someone that knows right off the bat, you don't always get what you want. Whether it's Congress or parents someone is always going to be there to shut us down. I think having to work harder than most only gives you the resolve to make something happen. It doesn't have to be exactly the way you want it but if something happens that's better than remaining stagnent. How can a country or it's citizens move forward without the help of our ”leader”. I use this term lightly. Not meaning lead the sheep to pasture leader. I mean the person that is supposed to be the pillar of the proverbial community. <br />
The issue we have with other countries and their different classes is that they look at America like the jock. Big, loud and dumb. First and foremost,.every country has their jocks. This country being no different. All jocks are not dumb some are not even loud but when you look up the stereotypical jock that is what we appear to be. Just like every other country we have our scholars, our leaders, the pillars, the artists, we have it all. Even though the jocks are at times the loudest doesn't mean that they represent the people as a whole. There is one thing that we have and that's compassion. Empathy is something we hand out to those who need it and we hand it out in abundance. I think sometimes we are too empathetic. We are the first to jump to the aide of others. This is a good quality but I do not think that many countries would be willing to help us out in a time of need.<br />
This could be because as the new country on the block we are going through our teenage years right now. Many other countries are far older than ours and went through their teenage years long ago. There are still some countries that are younger and still going through their infancy and leaning on the beliefs of its parents. I know that this sounds like a crazy comparison but really it isn't.<br />
How is it that politicians can be so blinded to the fact that they are not helping this situation? As a whole the United States is very lucky in the fact that we can vote. I have said it before and I will say it a million times... if you do not take the time to vote your forfeit your right to an opinion on the operations of the country. You could not take the time out of your busy schedule... I am just repeating myself again.<br />
Getting back to the original point. With a presidency that consists of mainly over achievers that have never had the luxury of being told no when this happens they end up throwing a temper tantrum. I understand that you think that your way is the best way. Don't we all. What is hard for so many to swallow is the lack of compromise that many have. It can not simply be either the way you want it or not at all. If that were the case we would have been stuck long ago in a holding pattern that would not have allowed for much advancement.<br />
Compromise is important for everything even better the teenager and the parents, or peers. You have to give to get and when you don't want to do that nothing gets figured out.Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-2277249088658130202012-08-18T21:09:00.001-07:002012-08-18T21:09:27.550-07:00Forgive Me<div>
There are so many wishy washy people these days. It's rather disheartening. Everyone has a right to change opinions. I think at some point in our life we all have had a change of heart for one reason or another. What makes me sad is that people give up so easily on others. Someone that they would have given their last dollar yesterday is not even worth a penny today. We've all made mistakes, have regrets, done some pretty despicable things to others. I have anyways, but as humans we all have a chance to redeem ourselves to come back from that pit of despair and make it better. At least we have the ability to try and make amends. Everyone should have that opportunity to ”make it up” to others. I'm sitting here now with this anxious feeling in my chest not because of me particularly but because so many people are given up on. Tossed aside by society, their family, friends, or any number of people. Labeled as no good, worthless, stupid, and useless. No one is any of those things. You are something to someone. Even if it's someone you haven't met yet. It may be someone you won't know for years but, you can never stop believing in yourself. When you no longer give yourself that one last shot at redemption or forgiveness you've truly lost. <br />
Lack of forgiveness seems to be the one last conviction people hold on to. I would give anything to go back and just make sure some people I know knew I still cared. I didn't give up on you. I still considered you a friend even though it had been years. I kick myself, miss you, regret not having one last conversation, and I've sworn since then I would never let that happen again. It would be nice to think that people still haven't given up on me. I'm temperamental, moody, I can be angry, and bitchy. But, I love people and care about them more than what most would ever know. I let people know where they stand. If you've found a place in my heart you have it forever. Even if we lose contact and move away from talking. Times will come when you'll cross my mind, I'll wonder how you are, and hope you're okay. <br />
For every wrong that has ever occurred between others and myself, it's been let go of. Sure some people are not those I care to know anymore but, that's the past. There is no grudge.<br />
Trying to understand people is one of the most difficult things that anyone can do. Some are not meant to be understood completely. People are mostly an enigma that is left to the imagination of each person. No matter how open and honest we are as people no one is a complete open book. Everyone has that one thing... that one thing that just thinking about makes them cringe and talking about it seems completely unbearable. Personally I have about five or six different things that I can think of off of the top of my head that I refuse to talk about. Mainly because it is just too difficult. Being overly emotional is not something that I look highly upon and yet I am that person. I can be hurt, scared, made to feel like less than a person, and most of the time it is not done on purpose. I am just sensitive.<br />
In the end though I just wish that people would stick up for what they believe instead of being persuaded by others. You have that right and if someone is upset that you feel the way you do then just remember they have that right. </div>
Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-42383214514313660262012-08-01T21:29:00.000-07:002012-08-01T21:43:09.517-07:00Chick-Fil-A and the Case of Diarrhea of the lips<br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Today there is this non sense going on with Chick-Fil-A which will from here on out be a banned restaurant for my family but that is neither here nor there. The president of the business Dan Cathy stated his support for biblical principles and biblical definition of a family. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hiding behind religion and politics is a poor excuse to explain ignorance. You can not simply say "oh because the bible says so." Well, you can but really that is an awful answer. That is the answer of a coward who decided long ago that an education was not important. Now, by education I am not talking college, or even school. I am talking real life. To seriously try to defend your hatred with biblical shenanigans, or political </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">propaganda is just absolutely asinine. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">See there is this whole separation of church and state thing... Remember that? Chances are that if you are on the outlaw gay marriage bandwagon you don't. I say this because the fact of the matter is your reason is immorality according to the bible. Well outlawing gay marriage because according to the bible it is wrong is an oxymoron. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am all for moral living. You know "Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you". Or better yet</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 16px;">"Do not impose on others what you do not wish for yourself." </span><span style="line-height: 16px;">-Confucius, circa </span><a href="http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_origin_of_the_golden_rule#" id="_GPLITA_3" in_rurl="http://www.textsrv.com/click?v=VVM6OTIyODo0OjUwMDo3YTI4ODQyNWQxNjEyOGYzYjk5YzNjZjExZDNkYjI5ODp6LTEwMzItMTAzNjg6d2lraS5hbnN3ZXJzLmNvbQ" style="color: #003399; line-height: 16px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" title="Powered by Text-Enhance">500</a><span style="line-height: 16px;"> BCE</span> That is before the whole "Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you". At this point though the only thing I am saying is in order to live a moral life you do not need to follow the bible. You simply need to treat others as you would want to be treated. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Back to the whole Chick-Fil-A nonsense. So people are flocking there like sheep because of the words that this president of the company spoke. Good for you if that is what you want to do. I am not one to force feed my opinion down anyone's throat but I am also not one that is going to sit here and read this garbage and not call it like I see it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Basically this is simply a case of bigots that are too scared to try and form an educated opinion on their own flocking to the one that talks the loudest. That happened with Hitler.. Yep I said it and I mean it too. Those that hide behind the words of others are the most dangerous people that exist. Those that do not question the words they hide behind are just as bad. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The worlds opinion of our country is so far down the hole that it is just disappointing. We would like to think ourselves these educated and cultured society yet time and time again we prove that we are anything but. What is the most bothersome is that people don't care. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I do care and I am not going to sit idly by as this group of radical what ever you want to call yourselves.. Christians such an easy veil to hide behind. Republicans which is an even easier veil. Reality is you are all just home grown terrorists that make the majority of us look bad. Sorry to be the one to break it to you but it is disgraceful that you would want to discriminate against someone because of sexual orientation when if a restaurant spoke out against fundamentalist Christianity you would all be the first to cry discrimination. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The worst part is you bring your children up with these beliefs that are nothing short of archaic. Shame on you. I would have hoped for so much more from our society at this point in time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Opinions are a right of all of us as Americans this is mine. You're wrong not because of your stance on gay marriage but your stance that it is okay to force your opinion and way of life on anyone. Intolerance breeds hatred. Hatred as well all know is a terrible thing to live with. It is so much easier to sleep at night knowing that I accept people at face value. Everyone is their own person. No one not even me has a right to tell you how to live or what to think. Do not mistake what this post is about. It isn't me telling you what to think but it is me calling bull as I see it. Oh and don't get this wrong my family ban on Chick-Fil-A started years ago when I realized the food was terrible. This is just directed towards the people that refuse to see that their way is not the only way. </span><br />
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<br />Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-25111258047655735862012-07-31T09:22:00.000-07:002012-07-31T09:22:56.811-07:00Cyber Bullying<br />
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<span style="text-indent: 0.5in;"> Going through different fan tags these days I have found that some of them have become a rather unpleasant place to visit. I find this very frustrating on a couple of different levels. The main one being to begin we are all here for the same purpose. Or maybe not. I visit the tags to see new information, pictures, etc. I as most people do not come to see the drama that has become common place in so many tags.</span></div>
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When you hear people say that they have to scroll past the text posts because they do not want to read the negative comments it is depressing. I mean I used to love to read what people were saying now though what most people are saying has something to do with negativity towards others. Surely, a lot of people have noticed this. I have seen the words <b>stalking. bullying, crazies, psycho</b>, and so forth thrown out with such regularity that I have begun to wonder if people really do realize that their words have an impact on others. To purposely set out to hurt someone else is a terrible quality to have as a human being. Those words are the beginning of a nasty path that many people go down and can never get off of. To specifically set out to hurt someone just because something they said or did is not something you would have personally done is not okay. Sure disagree, we all have that right but to try and lay a verbal foundation that breeds contempt and hate is not something anyone should strive for.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Have people forgotten that there is such a thing as cyber bullying? Of course you haven't. Maybe it is just something that is ignored. It shouldn’t be though. Did you know that people have committed suicide over that very issue? Anyone remember Phoebe Prince, Megan Meier, or Ryan Halligan? These three kids took their own lives in part it is believed to be because of cyber bullying.<o:p></o:p></div>
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In order to make a difference you have to care. Being the one to take the steps to make a difference is what is important. So, often people say they won’t be the one to tear others down but when it comes to the actual moment of truth more often than not if their friends are doing it then so are they. Someone has to stand up and say "this isn’t okay" because the truth is it most certainly is not. This is the one time when standing up and not being part of the group can truly make a difference.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Words are weapons. They have been for as long as words have been around. You can use them for good and for evil. Depending on how you use them is what the most important aspect of a person is. Abraham Lincoln Good.. Adolf Hitler Bad.... Of course with both it can be said that their actions spoke volumes. I just hope that everyone realizes that what you put on a screen.. They aren't just words to some. Yes you need to think of that when you put something up. If you are joking or not there is a time and place for a joke.<o:p></o:p></div>
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"For me, words are a form of action, capable of influencing change." Ingrid Bengis. The other thing words are capable of is causing irreparable damage to others. Never should it be okay to cause this damage.<o:p></o:p></div>
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For more information on the stories of the people listed above go to: <a href="http://www.puresight.com/Real-Life-Stories/real-life-stories.html" style="color: #007bff;">http://www.puresight.com/Real-Life-Stories/real-life-stories.html</a><o:p></o:p></div>
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This is not something that should ever be taken lightly or with a grain of salt. Don’t be the bully and don’t condone the bullies.</div>Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-90873525008631158312012-07-24T06:24:00.002-07:002012-07-24T06:24:28.798-07:00Dre...ams Wait Is That The Right Idea?<span style="color: #741b47;"><i><b><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I have been working really hard on a couple of different things lately. It is a nice feeling to have knowing that you are moving towards something that is your ultimate goal. Even if it is just baby steps. A baby step is still a step that doesnt go backwards. That means I am moving in the right direction. </span></b></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><i><b><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">This is a good feeling but slightly overwhelming at the same time. I mean, I keep telling myself that this is something that I have ALWAYS wanted and yet I am still nervous. Oddly enough though, the nerves are driving me forward. I am looking at everything with new eyes and realizing that maybe my hopes and dreams are not so far fetched. </span></b></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><i><b><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Maybe in the grand scheme of things life isnt always going to be stuck the way it is. Maybe... just maybe. You dont want to say maybe to much though because then it becomes a dream and dreams are like promises and get crushed. So instead I keep my maybe's and what ifs at bey. I keep plugging away working toward the end picture. Maybe I have that in my head. </span></b></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><i><b><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I am just a girl with a hope too afraid to let it be a dream. A girl with a wish that I will not add to the plans. </span></b></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><i><b><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Above all right now at this particular moment I think I am content. Content with moving forward slowly but surely. But, I know that maybe this is just my restlessness in disguise. What a circular motion my mind works in. Even reading and typing this I am confusing myself. </span></b></i></span><br />
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I can not even begin to understand why this would have happened. It is people like this man that makes people like me lose faith in humanity. Stealing away someones life is not a decision that is any living person's choice to make. The fact that anyone anywhere can do something such as this baffles me. Yes I do realize that it happens everyday but the fact that anyone anywhere thinks they can do this is what makes me sick<br />
<br />Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-59173237759744411832012-07-19T00:36:00.001-07:002012-07-19T00:36:17.468-07:00Spinning Things Around<div><p>Things have a funny way of sneaking up on you. Feelings you didn't know you had. Desires that you thought were long gone. But, then they are there. Standing on you like a ton of bricks on a pallet. <br>
For so long I figured everything was good. I didn't worry too much about the things I used to want. I thought I was content. The funny thing about being content and settling is that at some point the contentment dies. The wave of fear from settling rushes over you and you can't breathe. This won't work, it isn't what I wanted for me. The panic you feel is real and immediate. Wait as long as you want but, the feeling won't go away. That facade has collapsed and can not be rebuilt. <br>
About the same time those feelings move in there is another shift. The panic isn't there but it changes you. Your desire to attain the goals you had, the life you want, the path you could have chosen had things been different. You know that this desire will burn like the eternal flame. Whether you do anything to satisfy it is the question. Ignoring the desire only burns worse but failing would destroy you. <br>
These feelings and desires when they crash in leave you almost paralyzed with fear. You beg for the answers to come easy but, they never do. Chasing your tail you spin in circles. Stopping long enough to stop the dizzying madness that runs through your head.<br>
Once the fear passes your path is clear and you make your move. Nothing is ever easy and the things you work the hardest for make everything totally worth while. </p>
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Waking up early enough to catch the news is never a good idea for me. I end up watching the local news. This normally ends up making me so annoyed that I end up with these rants. Sorry if they bore you but I am implored to type this all out. <br />
In the past week there have been three bomb threats in the Detroit area. One on the tunnel to Canada and one on the Ambassador bridge to Canada. These bomb threats shut down but places respectively. Then last night there was a bob threat on Comerica park. The police, however, decided to not make an announcement to the game attendees. In all three cases no bomb was found. Shocking I know... <br />
I have a couple issues with the whole thing though. Closing the bridge and tunnel were of course very smart decisions. Not announcing to Comerica park that there was a bomb that.. Personally I think this was a terrible choice. Yes, in the end everything was fine but, they did not give petiole a choice about whether they wanted to stay or not. I'm sorry it just seems very irresponsible to me. I would be mad to no end to find out that there was a bomb threat in a place I was and was not informed. <br />
I understand that these cases were just someone being absolutely ridiculous but at the same time... Well, let's just say crazy people pull off crazy crap all the time. <br />
Then politics... Oh this just gets my goat all the time. Now before I say too much, I am not affiliated with any political party. I, to be completely honest think that most politicians are a hot mess. While I think it is more important for them to concentrate on their positives because that is what people REALLY want to hear they dwell on their competitors negatives. I get it, it's important to know negatives. However, when that's all I hear I start to think hmmm... nothing good going on for you? <br />
What brings this on is Mitt Romney dwelling on an Obama comment. I have ears... did I mention they work too? I don't need you to tell me what he said. Also, I don't need you telling me what I should or should not be offended about. Last time I checked I was able to make decisions on my own. <br />
I understand that some people may have been insulted by the comments Obama made. What I find more insulting is this man standing at a podium telling me that I should be insulted. Or actually no, not me actually because I am not an entrepreneur. But, all the rich people should be insulted. Ha what a joke.. <br />
Everytime someone points out a specific demographic I just go blank. Both presidential candidates did that over the last week. </div>
Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-79677443331874054442012-07-16T20:14:00.000-07:002012-07-16T20:14:17.730-07:00These Are The Things Nightmares Are Made OfToday brought forth a lot of emotions. It was weird because I did not feel as though I had it in me today to end up feeling the things that I felt.<br />
It started first by talking about religion. Yikes I do not like to go near that subject. I just know that my opinion is not the same as everyone elses. Instead of dealing with people trying to "save me" or change my mind I would rather keep to myself. Arguing is just not worth it. I do not force feed my opinion down throats and I do not take kindly to someone doing that to me. Anyway... So that conversation was brought to a screeching halt with my reply of I respect that we have differing views but at this point I am not interested. Thank you.<br />
Then of course we go on to talking about the town that I am from. It all started like this. The town is not what it once was many many years ago. The question as to why was raised. The response was because of all the black people. I of course started seeing red at this point. There is one thing that I can not stand more than anything and that is when people always turn things to a race issue. I looked sideways at my counterpart so they knew I wanted to know more. I never want to enter a battle blindly so I make an attempt to do as much back ground checking as possible before I bring down my thunder. So, it was stated that they ran into someone and asked them why a specific church had moved out of the town. (this of course has me not only seeing red at this point but fireworks.) The reason he was given was because of all the blacks. Yep because people did not want to join the church in said town because they had to drive through a town with a lot of black people.<br />
This is when I interjected with the following:<br />
"First things first, I do not tolerate racism of any kind. The fact that a church... a church of all things moves from a town because of "black people" just proves my point. Religion is supposed to teach acceptance and tolerance to the members of their church. Instead of practicing what they preach that opt to move away from a demographic and feed into racial tensions and stigmas."<br />
I do realize that religion as we all know does not teach tolerance and acceptance. To the contrary to be honest. This is just one of the things that makes me so angry. The holy attitudes when really it is just a bigot in a suit makes me physically ill.<br />
Yes I know that not every one is like that nor is every religion but, religion so often wants to put everyone into specific compartments. You know.. The sinners, the saved, the innocent, and the worthy. I myself would be in a whole new compartment more than likely labeled "Go to hell, go directly to hell, do not pass heaven."<br />
Hell may be an awful over statement because of one main reason. I treat people well. Under normal circumstances I would never go off like I did today but, it just was not a good day for me. I have grown up my whole life trying to make sure that people understand that I am a very non judgemental person. Sure I have my faults and downfalls. No one is perfect. Perfection is not even something I strive for. When I see that people are not tolerant in the least it hurts. It really physically hurts me deep down. Not because I think that everyone should be like me. What a crazy messed up world it would become. The reason is this country the USA has fought for freedom. Freedom that every race has fought and lost lives for.<br />
It is heart breaking to know that people wrote speeches such as the "Gettysburg Address" and "I Have A Dream" with the sole hope of moving past the sentiments that people still carry today. Sure we have all made great movements forward towards the equality that we do have today. Poison thoughts, words and deeds by others though just ruins what so many have worked so hard for.<br />
Religion to me at times seems so much like a super villain that it is almost scary. On the outside it is saying it is doing good but behind closed doors what is it really doing?<br />
So, this conversation ended with us. We moved on to another conversation but, the chill to my core knowing that somewhere out there some church moved because of what they referred to as "black people" makes me sick.<br />
What I think everyone needs to do is think back to this. Would you want to be treated that way? No... then don't do it to someone else. If you want respect from me then treat everyone with respect all the time. Period end of story. Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-37792595323634223302012-07-16T14:35:00.000-07:002012-07-16T14:35:15.755-07:00The QuestionAs the day comes to an end and you have a minute to reflect on your life. Your friends, family, and life in general what do you think? Are you happy? Do your friends put as much into your friendship as you do? What about your family? I do not think of these things often but when I do I tend to think that my answers though slightly depressing to some are truthful to the way a lot of people feel. Of course maybe that is just my optimistic attitude but, well the pessimist in me does not think so.<br />
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Now, I have talked about the end of the day for me in the past but, I have to admit that even though it sounds sad and depressing I am used to the way it goes. I am not sad or depressed about it. As a matter of fact I have grown rather accustomed to how it is and have grown quite fond of it.<br />
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As for the first posed question. When I think about those three things in the question friends, family and life I have very complex answers for them. Though they are complex I can sum them up quickly yet get the point across. No one wants to read something sad and boring for crying out loud. So, this is my attempt to make this not sad or boring.<br />
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Friends are something that I firmly believe you get one or two good ones that you can count on and the rest are aquaintences. I would love to believe that I have that although I think that when you are the one doing 90% of the contacting that leads to the conclusion that no that is not a good friend. I have heard excuses galore but the fact of the matter is you do not pick up the phone. Keep in mind I do not have an open door policy. Stopping by unannounced is just another way to show you dont know me.<br />
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Family is good. Dysfunction is cool. Although I think that everyone and everything is dysfunctional. So, I guess that means that family is normal. There really is not much to complain about. I am sure if I sit here long enough I can think of something.<br />
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My life is redundant with no sign of spontaneity. But, then again if there was a sign doesnt that negate the definition proper?<br />
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All in all I am happy. Bored but happy. Bored is okay in small doses. I would rather have excitement in larger doses but I am good. Too much excitement is redundant as well. There is such thing as too much of a good thing.<br />
<br />Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-67951688144489761022012-07-16T00:00:00.001-07:002012-07-16T00:00:38.072-07:00Marvel.....ous<div><p>Yesterday my inner geek, or not so inner depending on who you ask got the biggest surge of excitement since The Avengers came out. Marvel announced at SDCC that Guardians of the Galaxy and Ant-Man would be movies. They also released the title of Thor 2 and Captain America 2. Yes while at work I may have had a moment of over excitement that may not have looked the best. How was I going to contain myself though? I mean seriously this is just too exciting. It leads to the question.. What movie is Thanos going to be in? Holy, I can barely contain myself. I of course wanted to call my brother as soon as twitter quit blowing up for me.  I didn't though because working midnights means my midday is most peoples midnight. <br>
Instead of calling him I made sure that all of the release dates are in my calendar so that I can get the days off work for the midnight shows.<br>
Which leads me to talking to my brother today. He is probably just as excited as me.  If not more. We speculated about who the villains were going to be. Neither of us know for sure but I think his Thanos theory is likely. We will see though. <br>
The only thing I am surprised about is no Hulk movie yet. I understand prior Hulk films did not do well. But, prior Hulk films did not have Mark Ruffalo. Anyone that is a Hulk purest at least in my eyes would say Mark plays the character close to what we grew up on. And that to me was Bill Bixby. He was Bruce Banner and always will be in my eyes. <br>
You have to understand when The Avengers came out I was excited for Loki. What can I say the magic that is Tom is not lost on me. I, however, was so interested in Mark playing the Hulk the first time. As I watched the movie Loki was not at the front of my mind. I love the Hulk. I have since I was a kid and watched the show with my dad. That and the six million dollar man. I digressed though. I just hoped and maybe even said a little prayer if that's what you would call the inner monologue with myself that Mark could pull this off. He did more than pull it off though. After he pulled it off he knocked it out of the park.<br>
Marvel I implore you to make a Hulk movie. From the origins. I'll help with the script. Give me my childhood dream... I promise I'll go see it five times at least. <br>
So as the next couple of years go by for me I'm glad to know Marvel will be making more movies that I'm no doubt going to love. Love in the way only my geeky self can. And believe me I mean that in the highest sense of the word. </p>
</div>Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-25245605835457549702012-07-15T13:31:00.001-07:002012-07-16T00:08:49.168-07:00Normalcy the New Weird<div><p>Being normal is something that I think everyone strives to be. Although if you ask most people the definition of normal is very different for everyone. I think that when you try and try and try to fit in somewhere you become less you. Maybe that is what normal is. People trying to be part of a collective that no one ever truly will be.<br>
What made me think of this is I know that most people would never consider me normal. I, however, would consider myself very normal. At least normal for me. So, even though people may think I am weird or a nerd. Is it that odd that I have the Marvel movies with release dates in my calendar for the next two years? That is normal to me.<br>
I think that when you try to fit in with a group no matter how much you have to change if you are changing at all you are becoming less normal at least for you. I think that instead of everyone worrying about being normal to every one else maybe they should think more about if they are normal to themselves. <br>
If everyone fit into a mold of normalcy then it ceases to be normal and becomes a collective. Our own modern day Stepford. I think everyone can agree that there is no way that was normal. <br>
So, as I go gently into this good night I embrace my weirdness like a teddy bear. Knowing when I get up what I am is normal. My normal.. </p>
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Rejection it's just one of those things we all have to deal with. Regardless of how comfortable and charmed our lives are things happen. Life lets us down. People let us down and prospective careers let us down. <br />
Getting a no is never easy to hear. Sometimes I think nails on a chalk board would be easier. But, from that no a couple of things can happen. First, you give up. Roll over, play dead, and just let everything happen to you, not for you. The other thing that can happen is you set your mind. You make it happen. I know what I want and no matter how long it takes I will get there. <br />
I refuse to be had. Rejection won't stifle my voice, or change my mind. Deep down underneath all the insecurities and lack of confidence that has become my silent tomb there is a voice. One that wants to yell, I have something to say and I'm going to say it. Though my confidence may waiver I know that it is going to be worth it.<br />
Walking into the sunlight that blinds me to the future is not easy. Life was never meant to be easy. But, faith in myself and in my hopes and dreams is what pushes me forward. So, into the sun I walk. Glasses in hand with a story in my heart and a song in my head. Rejection only adds to the story of me. Each and everyday it grows and becomes more interesting. <br />
No I'm not sad, I'm not happy, but I'm good. Moving forward at a steady pace. Slow and steady wins a race but when you aren't racing you can move as you choose. Each and every step calculated or haphazard the person it matters most to is you. Just always remember rejection gives you a choice. But, you are the only one that can decide. It is you and you alone that holds the keys to your future.<br />
Nothing is predestined. </div>Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-34702538516595496432012-07-12T17:36:00.003-07:002012-07-12T17:36:53.242-07:00Napoleon Complex for Girls.I have never been the voice of reason. Never been one to always remain calm. Actually it has been quite the opposite for most of my life. I usually fly off the handle at the blink of an eye. Or I should say I used to. Now, I grit my teeth and walk away. I do that because I have come to realize that getting mad is giving power to everyone else and losing your own. Instead I have gained the ability to communicate with people in an effective way. I refuse to give them the power that is mine.<br />
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I try to be a peacemaker even though I get the feeling that people think that makes me a push over. This is false of course. I am not naive. I can tell when people are lying to me and trying to take advantage of certain situations. I more often then not will not allow that to happen to me. Every once in a while it does but I try to be my voice of reason.<br />
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The realization hit me today when I was talking with a friend. I think I like debating and writing things that make people think because I have a female Napoleon complex. I know that sounds silly but it really is the truth. No it isn't penis envy. I just really have always felt that I have to work extra hard to prove myself as a valuable person. Be it because I am short or what I do not know.<br />
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Question my intelligence and it is like you are opening up a can of worms that most people would rather keep closed. There are very few things in life that I am sure of but, one thing that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is that I am no slouch when it comes to mental capacity. By no means do I think I am the smartest person in the world. I can think of people that would make me look terrible right away. But, I can also say that there are many others who can not.<br />
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At any rate, I have tried to explain things to people in a diplomatic sort of way. Most of the time it works and I can keep my cool. Sometimes I can not and when that happens I do step back and reevaluate what I am upset about. More often then not it is something that I just need to reword if even for myself.<br />
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Whenever you think you're getting ahead there is always something there to sneak up from behind. I mean that in the cleanest of senses. <br />
<br />Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-91935316446375038612012-07-12T14:46:00.002-07:002012-07-12T14:54:23.103-07:00Eating Paste... Good Times... Good TimesNostalgia is something that has always been very important to me. I have always been the type of person that remembers smells, sounds, and sights that become very specific to me.<br />
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I remember being a kid at my grandmas house. Playing outside around her lilac bushes. Running through them was always so much fun. To this day that smell makes me think of her. She has been gone for over a year but that smell still brings her smile to the forfront of my mind's eye.<br />
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Any time I hear Willie Nelson Always On My Mind I think of my other grandma. I just remember hearing that song with her when I was very little. She has been gone almost five years and just thinking about the opening line of that song brings tears to my eyes. I really miss her so much. She was my sounding board and friend above being grandma. She was too young when she left and it still upsets me to this day.<br />
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When I hear Gloria from Shadows of Knight I always think of my uncle. Just sitting in the basement listening to that on the record player. The scratch of the needle on vinyl, the gritty singer, the guitars oh that song just makes me so happy to this day. Any time I hear a record though the scratch of the vinyl I think of my uncle. Just a very cool time in my life.<br />
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When I see Lassie I think of my old dog. When I hear tags cling on a dog collar I think of her. I always leave two tags on my dog to cling together just so I can hear that sound. It reminds me of being a kid and running around the yard with her. You could always hear her coming.<br />
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I have talked about other songs in past posts that remind me of things. Music really played a major role in my life growing up. There are songs that I still have a hard time listening too. There are movies that I can not watch.<br />
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I could make a list a mile long that would talk about the things that remind me of other things but it would end up being even more boring to everyone else but me. <br />
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<br />Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-44450646635135635922012-07-12T13:13:00.001-07:002012-07-12T18:02:01.935-07:00MannersManners-<br />
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I think that because I have my two kids I am starting to become even more aware of manners than I was before. Don't get me wrong my mom raised me to have manners and be polite and kind. I am to this day. However, when I was younger others being rude never seemed to bother me as much as it does now. It is not even just the please and thank you thing. I know that I have talked about that at least once before. The other thing that annoys me to no end is when people do not say excuse me. I mean if I am walking past you and I stand even the slightest chance of bumping into you I am going to say excuse me.<br />
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Excuse me is one of those things that I think for a lot of people have gone totally missing. I do not quite understand why people have lost this but it is sad. I bump into you and then act like it is your fault. Who on earth thinks that is right?<br />
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What is even more disturbing to me is the fact that kids these days seem to have zero respect for others. It really does come across like their parents do not even care enough to teach these simple things. I mean without common manners and courtesy you are setting your children up for failure. Without being polite people are not going to want to help you. They are not going to want to go out of their way to make sure that you are okay. A simple thank you can go a long way. A simple excuse me can go even further.<br />
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I just think that in a society where people seem to be becoming less and less civilized reintroducing manners could go a long way. Just my thought on the subject. If you want to raise children with bad manners that is on you but if my kids don't say please, thank you or excuse me they get a serious talking to.Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2811756249452462222.post-46850762316578492392012-07-12T10:09:00.001-07:002012-07-12T18:03:54.127-07:00Leave Sleeping Bears.. I Mean Me AloneSo many people these days take it upon themselves to just do as they want. I mean with zero respect for anyone else that they may be infringing upon in the process. It is hard to justify this when others can blatantly see that you are making others miserable. When avoidance becomes someones norm there is something seriously wrong. Not just with them but the ones causing this behavior in them.<br />
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I have witnessed a lot of things that have really started to bother me to the point of actually feeling rather guilty. Do I think that I personally have gone out of my way to make the situation worse, no but I definitely do not think that I made it any better or easier to deal with. Maybe I am the jerk. Yes I do believe that I am in a way. But, I just think that maybe I am a little more humane than some. There is no way that I can justify in my head a lot of things. I wish that I could.<br />
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Making someone miserable is just something that I can't justify. I do not see how another person can. I can put this in very specific terms without being an outright ass. When I come home from work in the morning after working all night the last thing that I want to do is deal with phone calls or with people. I am tired and the one and only thing on my mind is getting some rest. It most certainly is not appeasing the people that happen to call or whatever. I find it rude and intruding that people expect to be appeased that early in the morning. In reality I would love to just say "Get bent" but I am just not that mean.<br />
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Treating someone like they are a snake on display at the zoo is just not fair to them. I mean put yourself in their shoes.Would you like people hounding you at all hours of the day? I think that 99% of the people in the world would say no. That does not sound appealing in the least to just about everyone. Yet many people don't care because if they are getting something that they want out of the deal it is okay for them to act in this way. It is very difficult for me to understand how this can be rationalized as okay.<br />
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I think that it always boils down to having respect for people has human beings. When you call someone and they say that they were sleeping what is so hard about calling back or letting them call you back when it is convenient. Same goes for visiting if it is clear that they are not in shape to visit. As in look tired or obviously getting ready to get into bed then STOP. Take a step back and think about what you are doing. Do you really think it is fair of you to do that? How would you like it if I came by at 3:00 a.m.? You would be asleep but I could keep you from sleeping. Then you would know how I feel. It is the same thing, my schedule just is opposite. I do not care if most of the ever loving world is awake when I am sleeping. What matters to me is I am sleeping.<br />
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On that note I am done with this rant. Take a look in the mirror next time you are asking for the things that you want, if the shoe was on the other foot would you be okay with it?Elizabeth Higginshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10036603641271073257noreply@blogger.com0